| No instant messaging, video conferencing, or even 3D teleporting can ever replace physical contact, thank god for that. |
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| Amazing book, still finishing it, tell you how awesome it is afterwards :) |
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| Love is really a very dangerous thing.....the deeper you get involved with it..the closer you get to the point of really really great love..the more dangerous it is...that suddenly something very small can happen and tip the balance over, turning everything into hate, you start hurting each other in a manner that you can never imagine yourself will ever do, undoing all the beautiful memories and all thing is dark...the tension and everything can be such a heavy load.
I have a feeling that I am getting very close to such a state, a very solid feeling...when problem arises, it's getting easier and easier to find that extra boost of faith and trust compare to when I started, but there's also an increasing danger in thinking this is all unfair and someday there better be a good reward to all this......it's very easy to think so when you worked hard in your mind gym, and gave more than everything to keep your fire alive. I've had dreams that she had done something that really hurts me, I hope it isn't a reflux of hidden hate, I really don't, because what we both need now is a lot of love, love that dissolves all suffering and bring us joy.
I think if I can get over it, it'll be much easier to overcome anything that could be throw at us, although it never garuntees that it will make a relationship last forever, but it will be a very nice thing....to always remember the greatness of her and be able to forgive everything...I think by then it won't be too painful.
Still hoping... for the bridge of communication to be built...still opening 24 hours a day..when she have anything to say...still believing that....she will want my understanding....and I will give her support nomatter how she decides.....and I shall never fall into the curse of hatre.
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| Horror! I was asked for identifications when I try to buy 4 cans of woodpecker in Sainsbury. |
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